The Philosophy of Symbolica - Page 5

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"But we all must lie in coffins, eventually. Lie still, love. This is your coffin. Most of us never get to know what it feels like. You know what it feels like!"

- Lestat in Interview With the Vampire

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"Mother, there is more to it. Before it happened, there were times when I felt terrible things. I mean, I dream sometimes that I might kill all of them. I kill my brothers and my father in the dream. I go from room to room slaughtering them as I did the wolves. I feel in myself the desire to murder . . ."

- Lestat in The Vampire Lestat

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"'But do you believe in God?' I asked my brother Augustin. 'How can you live if you don't!'

"'But do you really believe in anything!' I demanded of my blind father. 'If you knew you were dying at this very minute, would you expect to see God or darkness! Tell me.'

"'You're mad, you've always been mad! he shouted. 'Get out of this house! You'll drive us all crazy.'"

- Lestat in The Vampire Lestat

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"'But that's just it, we don't make any discovery at that moment! We merely stop! We pass into nonexistence without ever knowing a thing.' I saw the universe, a vision of the sun, the planets, the stars, black night going on forever. And I began to laugh.

"'Do you realize that! We'll never know why the hell any of it happened, not even when it's over! . . . We're going to die and not ever know. We'll never know, and all this meaninglessness will just go on and on and on. And we won't any longer be witnesses to it. We won't have even that little bit of power to give meaning to it in our minds. We'll just be gone, dead, dead, dead, without ever knowing.'"

- Lestat in The Vampire Lestat

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"I can hear him again! All you freaks who abandoned me in my time of need and all you freaks who spread rumors about me and all you freaks who lied and told me you would be there for me - you're all going to be punished! Prepare for the bear, you fucks! I've been locked down long enough! I've been hiding long enough! I've been lying long enough! I'm tired of being a fucking pussy just because you don't want to hear my shit! Listen, I had to hear your sorry shit for the longest! I had to be conservative for your own fucking pleasure! I had to watch all you fucks fuck each other before my own eyes! I couldn't get one fuck! I had to act decent and good - well, fuck you! I hear my baby, I hear my angel, and he talks to me, and he's always there for me! He tells me when you are planning something devious, you fucks, so don't try that sorry shit anymore. Listen, if you want to destroy me, it's going to take a lot more than tying me to some fucking raggedy old fence and beating the shit out of me! You're only hitting my shell! Yeah! And guess what else?!! If you kill me, I'll find a way to make sure you're punished! Fuck killing you, your asses will be tortured until you beg for mercy and . . ."

- Symbolica (12-17-98)