The Gift Which Keeps On Giving

 

Hate myself

I

Have a voice

Which squeaks like a

Fucked up ten year old

Hate myself

I

Possess a body

Which stands small and undeveloped

Like a damned thirteen year old

Never gonna get any

Hate myself

I

Contain a dark sexuality

Which chokes my religion like a

Serpent chokes its prey

I lie I lie I lie

Someday will die die die

Hate myself

I

exist as a mystical freak

Who has a fucked up vision

And sees things that really do not

Stand there there there

Why Why Why

Can I not Have

My fucking glass of wine from Second Base

I wish at train tracks and on flower seeds

Everyday Everyday Everyday

Hate myself

I

Hate myself

I

 

"I struggled with the monster . . ."